For Whom the Bell Tolls

Not only is it a great Metallica song but it’s also a Hemingway book.
Seen it on the Ken Burn Vietnam, inspired the VC to fight.
Or in laymans terms inspired atleast one Vc to fight inspired by American literature.
How crazy is that.
That girl said, “this character. I related to and helped me fight.’
Isnt that crazy, that kind blows my mind.

George Clayton Johnson

What an interesting name.
Author passed om in 2015 xmas day Rest In Power.
Havent read anybooks just came up randomly, I though was in my list from Sopranos.
From the John W Campbell, Ray Nelson, Diane Johnson list.
Im interested was in the signal corps, Draftsman.
ww2 GI bill
Logans run
That unionization project.
Cheyenne Wyoming
Ray Bradbury.
Hugo awards.
Definitely on my to-do list for some reading and further research.

a letter from Brad Vintage

Nice letter from Brad I found mysteriously lol throw back.
I remember that trip and ruining his sisters garden and building forts .. seen apollo 11 too

Its not Apollo 11 its Apollo 13.
Apollo 11 was the moon mission we all know about.
Apollo 13 is the troublesome one. Tom Hanks movie

Ruining his Sister garden lol.. what a funny phrase, I dont think she cares anymore but ill apologize anyways cause Im just remembering this lol.
I dont joy in ruining something, it was just cool mud fort with water fountains and pools and cool mud structure lol.
I also remember trying to fly into the couch at top speed possible which involved running top speed and flying over a sectional into the poofie couch lol.
Biking was cool, tiring.
Going down that hill was fun but after that it sucked going back up im not even sure if it was possible.
Airport scene was the best.
Overall great memories of that trip.
Kinda sad its done and all i have are memories actually.
The thing about Nostalgia, is its always important to make new memories.
Although for this trip pretty cool as a kid I guess.
Then reading all sorts of retro Canadiana Gold Rush, the place had a mysticism of course.
What seemed to be infinate money at the grocery store for comics.

Nah I have a vivid memory mostly lol
Well thx Brad sis for the place to stay.
Freaking long journey its no joke.

I wonder if they get some Cabin Fever up there.


Just so funny how comes to mind to produce some poetry.
I just wana write how difficult or simple it is to create.
Im Trying to remember my english training.
So its not for naught.
I did it wrote a poem sent it a float Matey
i wrote poetry
I checkbixc that shit for me.
took me about 2.75 hrs for a good poem

The Wars – Timothy Findley _ Up to three

More homework. Not sure what the questions are but I am to read up to three. Have a ton of math but heres the page I may produce more insensitive comments about the fictional daughter of marquises. They can mar-kiss my ass. And the buffoons in government, fought for nothing and complacent to silencing parliament. Set a reminder for September, reminder for more disappointment. After 6 months of the most sub-bar government Ive ever seen bar-none.
June 2 2020
Now that I have expunged the negative comments I had and sent them directly to the people responsible. I will continue to read this book. Lets see I could be reporting about the George Floyd protest but the world is saturated with. Ive only had a few negative experiences with the police nothing like that. I believe truth reporting is important accountability single and organization. Activism. Good government. Its a good argument for protection both ways with the body cam. Seen it at my friends house on the PBS news. That Rick Steeves speech was good. Can you believe the Feds have time for kayaking but not the House of Commons and democratic process, while we are watching current events unfold. Its like watching clowns flush money and resources down the st Lawrence laughing all the way to the drain.
I can go to Walmart but not fort Calgary or the military museum . What do they expect.

Two-11. Im still in this section before I had to do math.
Lady Juliet D’Orsey. First of all is a fictional character. From twelve to seventy. Fourth child from M&M St.Aubyn. Sorry I dont do fake people rank or titles from hundred years ago. Wilton place however does exist.
M.St. Aubyn I found was a fictional family. A writer with a similar name. Wilton place is a interesting looking area. Can visit with google earth. Across the srteet is the St Paul’s Knightbridge victorian edifice with ornate interiors. Oh the mentioned Knightbridge in the book the one time Im ahead of the author. He mentions the park you must cross. Lets see what it looks like today. Maybe was like an alcove secret entrance.Theres some brick roads not ideal for skateboarding. Hospital must have turned into the Berkley loks like a hotel with bars inside. The Collins room is super fancy. Wow from War hospital to posh hotel. Hang out at the blue bar, ornate walls. The bar and terrace looks nice. Behind the winton place looks like some built in stable doors. So theres a black car Daimler. And who feels like Aldren on the moon. Is this a memory or Rob. Oh its a memory of rob told by someone else, but who feels like Aldren ? Charlotte Krauss. Anyways they are looking at knight bridge. That makes me think of some pillar of the earth. A Gothic ruin. It looks good. There was a quire playing on the google earth too. Hes describing the scene I guess its the ancestor trying to learn more about Rob because of some clues from the past. There we go before they even meet she freaks out about the pronunciation of her name. Im so rude that would be the funniest thing I ever heard, although if she asked nice why not comply. Jeez just change your name . Imagine having to give that speech every time you met someone. Someones got fictional issues. LAdy J smokes and drinks gin at seventy. Something about Stuart Brothers and how they didn’t like each other or something. Who knows. Ill just ask the internet instead of playing this authors game. How about talking english and telling me whats going on would be alot more interesting. Keeping interest.

12 .
In my words, Rob meets MM’s daughters. After Harris.. Jamie Villiers Bandage man that has no voice. This narrative is just drivel., Its a voice recording talking about all these extented people form years ago jamie whent to school and they were real and so on. In real time theres tea and sandwhiches. Ok so theyre talking about the elite class partier poets that all died in the war. They havbe more than a brotherhood bond theyre in love according to Lady J. Who Rob and Harris. Something about atheltics and poetry and beauty. But maybe not as lovers. “Every generation has a war except this one.” Thats a bizzzare thing to say with the advantage of history. Might disagree with that. Ordinary man has the right to be horrified of a mangled human corpse on the side of the road. Can agree with that. Politicians hide themselves away, they only started the war. Even with Artillery bombing or UAV remote weapons, might be a preferred way to fight but doesn’t include as much carnage as the tip of the spear. Then now. Ok so this is some weird things Harris said before dying. Then he gets cremated accidently. Rob gets the ashes, cant put em anywhere. Not a parishioner. All we are is dust in the wind. Then Rob and Tasffle and Lady J do the funeral I think. Go sing with the whales cause he was looking out for some whales on the boat ride over. Its sad neither his father would respond. Father couldnt care to even respond to a telegram. What else is new. Just as that starts ok so theyre at the bunker with the animals all over again and describing the St Eloi Mines that set off a barrage or atilery fire not far from their position. Crater is so big you could kayak in it. or paddle around. Massive craters in this area.
27-28 Feb 14-18 its hard to say. But some interesting tunneling engineer operations. Im willing research more to learn after duties completed

Takes me to -Three.
Ok good cause assignment due. Force feed this content.
3 is written by the hour and not separated by section so will read this all in one sitting.
June 3 2020.
Here we are well its morning technically doing what im supposed to. Lets see current events are crazy right now. Its Wednesday. Read an old retired St. Louis Police officer killed in the looting. Capt. ret. David Dorn. He was trying to stop looters from taking a tv. The US President commented on it on twitter. Theres some curfews in place. Thats harsh, wish i was hearing some Tommmy Edman , Tyler O’Neil, Paul Goldschmidt Dexter Fowler Home runs instead. More of that announcer Dan Mclaughlin. Anyways dropping all the names but I miss baseball. Wonder if they played baseball in flanders field. Did any US soldiers in WWI play baseball in Europe surely thats not too far fetched of an idea.. Yes much baseball in France in WW1. Alot of players giving up a large salary to fight with the Marines. SO they probably missed baseball more than anybody. Anyways probably just get back to the homework. Keith Hernandez was Cardinals announcer once.
The book starts for -three- Feb 28 no year.
I do remember some of the St Eloi crater. Glottal stop wow its a metaphor for talking into the shockwave of a explosion. Ok hes got the cages, seems like extra curricular duties but ok. Well hes in the bunker awoken by explosion and cant see then for a bit, candles go out. He can feel is legs. Ok start removing the dirt and earth and beds from them so he can get up. Theyre all talking officer like. Its liek pleasantries over lifting things. Forget who levit is, he was there before wasnt he. Or its Rob and Levitt Rodwell. Levitt the reader, and they arguing about candles on books and leviit is a psycho apparently. Well at least Poole didn’t die and so far they all survived that situation.
4:25 am it says,
Then starts “The previous evening”
So why doesn’t it say Feb 27. The evening before. Ok so basically they went to go see the front line of their area the evening before. They met the corporals and sgt seen the area, it was viewing distance from the stained glass dugout. Well that blast destroyed that position apparently. Apologizing for falling on a corpse ew. He saves a rat almost drowning in a pool. Just something alive.
5:30 am
Hes trying to get orders at the farm house, Germans are missing the farmhouse but some rounds get close. Anyways he meets his boss, and basically gets a few new replacements and well they need to put new guns up, but the OC doesn’t really know the situation but anyways thats the way orders go, and he introduces him to the cpl and hes in charge of a new work party .
Dont they mean 0700…
Sir did you mean 7:30 am or 7:30 pm when the attack starts.
PM OR AM !!!
22 no ranks, and cpl Bates and Rob. Bates Overawed at the battlefield. lol that made me laugh the cpl threatens to shoot everyone him self if they dont hustle, So Rob draws his pistol to protect him from the overzealous cpl.
HEs trying to make the gun beds in the AO of the stained glass dugout. Work out a plan first instead of hastily rushing nowhere.

7 : 30 AM
Levitt the book guy wont take his great coat off. I dunno about officers and dress its like figure out how to dress yourself and quit making it a fucking issue. What is this day care on the western front dont forget your bib. If it freezes then nothing is wet, but they have a job to do rain or shine. Oh theres a cloud. Thanks captain. And both their men are dead maybe a corporal can remedy the situation.

8:15 am
Ok so moving up past the destroyed line. Theres a stretcher casualty sitting there the bearers are dead. And basically they have to move forward because the gun positions. ITs not their job to stay behind and take care of the wounded. Just describing what a trench looks like after some serious effective shelling or mine blasts. The corrugated steel and the trench folding in on itself. Glad to wear gloves so you dont have to touch someones skeletal hand. Well hes got a plan gotta put the guns in a hole and have em ready to fire. Bates concerned he doesnt want a idiot in charge leading him to his death. So its a description of Rob leading the way into a crater to set the guns up and hes got backup and hopefully not waiting for a German attack to come over the lip of crater.

8:50 am
Basically some panic they’re all slipping and sliding in the crater. Theres a gas attack none of them are issued gas mask. Piss in a rag and breathe over it. So all at pistol point.Anyways ivbe heard of this more than once.

9:30 am Ammonia from piss caused chlorine to turn into harmless crystals, but what about your eyes. Rob has flashback about his chemistry class.

10:30 am suspecting attack.

12.15 lunch time. just kidding. the sun zenith died so maybe some clouds. its snowing.

Rob been there for a while him and bates still alive. Hes slowing picking himself up the snow might give away their position because Its a clue about rob getting haunted by that bird till he died. Back at the trench everyone was dead green and gassed and frozen so Some type of german sniper watching them and waiving etc all friendly like. Good you.

Now its moved to Days.
Friday 3 march, well now i can find the year. 1916 Theres talk of the new flame thrower weapon, Flame thrower guys with crosses oon their chests. Watching some Verdun footage. The flamethrower. Leviit went mad with his books. Winter hibernation Toad. Torpor is reduced metabolic state.
Rodwell gets re-assigned. Ross in charge of the toad. to be released somewhere green. Captain leather shows up. Why dont you just call him S&M fan. Levvitts books all scorched never to be read again. Kinda funny ironic the clausewitz book went up in flames in a warzone go figure. Rodwell is kills himself over some men torturing animals. With a touching letter to his daughter. Well some people have time to write. Unlike the Harris father.

Jan Feb March 1916 this must be Ross mom that I dont really care about. Ok she like to walk in the storm. Big fucking deal. Something about parliament being razed to the ground in fire. ok shes living in fantasy land. Ok really dont c are about ms ross love affairs with the rich carriage maker and not trusting love. To have and Have not.

8 March
Sent to England.he has Rodwells book and Rob was the only human he drew in it, or is it a dream, more like sketches.

Well that finishes it off he got through customs with a toad, releases it in England or France somewhere green.
Rodwells letter to his daughter is saying that things live on forever. What does he mean but that theres life everywhere and life helps life. Anyways so Rob loses another friend.
Its a sad part that Rodwell didn’t get to enjoy that toad. Animals just trying to chill and live meanwhile theres flamethrowers and cannons scorched earth. I didn’t fucking agree to this world war, killing, destruction. Whose responsible ?
Anyways that ends part 3 reading gonna have to write out some questions.
Not like Robs mom can go to the front and fight but i dislike the character in a fictional way. Levitt the scholar shoulda stayed at school need a combination of sharp scholar and althetisism. Btu what do i know about the front 103 years ago. I think the greatest frustration is watching the bad planning and orders unfold along with the chaos nothing goies as planned no one has issued kit. So its frustrating from the sideline but our ancestors persevered, won despite all the things going wrong.
Tomorrow is Tom Longboat day gonna celebrate it first time.
I can comment on the color of the scenes Is pretty vivid. It paints a picture in a sense how I painted the scene in my head. Then I seen 1917 this year that was pretty crazy maybe linking some scenes. Also to read about some of the Place Like St Eloi was informative.
Besides, no one’s interested in something you didn’t do.

The Wars – Timothy Findley- two , 1-10

This is my homework commentary.
Finished the Quiz 2. Got some questions wrong, cause I wasn’t able to admit Rob was modest. And I called his little bit of resistance to the captain ‘not willing’. So there you go.
May 21.
Rob is a loner, or uncomfortable to varying degrees around others.
I missed one part ill have to go back after. Im not sure what happened yet maybe im reading it the intended method, or maybe not. It remains a mystery for now.

Book time is Feb 1916. Written of the 2 month 2 day anniversary of landing in France. Centre of the world is Ypres and Flanders fields, Kemmel hill. Kemmel hill nothing higher in Belgium and the low lands all the way to spain. Because of its flatness its been the scene of many battles since the time of Caesar. Low land equal mud also the season. Flemish, Dutch Germanic, native to flanders. Desription of ‘clyttes’
//..Called clyttes, exist at their worst north of Ypres in the vicinity of the Houthulst Forest. Because of the impervious clay, the rain cannot escape and tends to stagnate over large areas. Unable to soak through, it forms swamps and ponds, and sluggishly spreads toward one of the already swollen rivers or canals. The ground remains perpetually saturated. Water is reached at an average depth of eighteen inches and only the shallowest of puddly trenches can be dug by the troops, reinforced by sandbag parapets. When the topsoil dries during fair weather, it cracks open. The next rain floods the fissures. Then the clay blocks slide upon themselves, causing little landslides.//
Book, the description of the previous group in 1916 say you waded to the front and how water comes up from where you step. I tlooks swampy and many canals now. Back then with no topsoil liquid mud.

2. So were at Kemmel probably after a description of Ypres and flanders. Theres a war graveyard at Houthulst
. Now theres a hotel on Mont Kemmel, and many cemetaries there. Ok so theyre at Baileul which is SW of mont Kemmel Asylum not sure where that would be but in this area. Outrskirts. Ok tthe more NE we go the more Flemish it becomes.Rob gets called assasin by the Flemish Farmer. He said hes canadian surely cause toronto and the anglophones francophones. Anyways the farmer is pissed lost some cows doesnt like English people.

3. Bugler rank description.
Just reflecting on my life compared to Rob, Im able to achieve / attempt all sort of things with time and relatively consequence free. Its more like comparison to another friend who died in the forces. Another femal Artillery officer KIA. Well I dont even know if Rob died yet,or vegetable etc. I dont know his fate yet. But thankfull I dont have a fate of France in WW1, so far. Many died so ‘we’ could be ‘free’. These current events I keep hearing like politicians contempt for farmers is pissing me off. Well that is not benevolent. Ill concede the point of this isnt a comparison of Canada from 1917 , late-1970s , to my time in the mo, 2020 current events, unless I make it. Another friends word: Sacrifice. Its fitting but Im not claiming credit. The fight against tyranny. Sacrifice and freedoms and Canadian way of life. A comparison from the novel. On changes from a old society and the railroad and the quietness of towns, as a metaphor for going past a point of no return.

3. The Bugler
Cant remember who Regis is Ill have to scan the notes after, __ and research the things I dont know. Willie is bugler. All of a sudden theyre alone. Okj so the scene, theyre on a road, lets say from what I remember NE towards the mountain of the region. SE from that is a road and destroyed areaS. Gotta be some big differences in officers in near 103 year. Some things the exact same. Phosgene from the wiki mixed with chlorine theres soem disadvantages such as the color and the time it take to affect its victims. Sounds liek theres 3 of them and some animals. On or near the road. Theres gas. Theyre wondering were the rest of the packet is. Bivouac is the camp area they might be tasked to finding. theyre sending the orderly like the ensign from starrtrek back to rejoin the convoy. With the bugle as a type of sonar alarm pulse. some ducks pop out, Rob has affinity with animals. But then the ducks leave along with the orderly, and they try to joke that hes not super good on the bugle.. He cant remember bathing. When the wind blows it smells of ash bitter and acrid (irritating strong unpleasant) Lets see so after that another officer pops out of nowhere theyre in a dike had to leave the corporal in charge.. The 2 oficers lost now in a dike and its overflowing and theyre at a risk of drowning so action must be taken. Three men seven horses gotta get off the flood plain or dike channel.

4. Rob is the vanguard or the recce fdor land for the main body, the wind gives shape to the area. to the rigth a ruiver, to the left field. He dismountrs hes exoploring around hears some water and falls into the mud hes trying to escape and cant seem to get free from the mud but he gets free, hes stuck in some channel with corpses. Interesting with the slap slap witht he raft at jackson point. Jackson point being a swim hole for Young Rob, and Raft another Huck mention. Also the cant scream when dying, or reminding your brain to speak.

5. Crossing the river dike. Using it as a rinse from the chlorine mud. The process for crossing the river. Comparing the horse to Pegasus. Glad he unhooked the stirrups or he would have been dragged. Next hes drug out of water and next to the fire. As they leave the crows follow the convoy fresh meat for eating later. It was the crow eating the other guy probably.

6. trench description, 2 paralel trenches with their own comms infrastucture. 2nd batle of Ypres was April 1915. Talking about the duties and Root and Ross and the rolling Rs , 30 mins nuisance firing or 2 hours before trench clearing operation. 21 feb 1916 im guessing here. Attacking Verdun. Maybe hes over here by Knokke. Thin roads and nice farms

7. During the attack not much happenend now theyre at some observation post and can see some details about the enemy. Portion of trenches not covered so they havr to walk by but try not to hurry top fast or will draw fire.. Theyre relieving some people at the front.
May 26, bout to finish this off. This government, governor general is a fraud. Subservient to tyrants and complacent to shutting down of parliament. Its nearly end of May, Canadians have no parliament and no voice. Thats what you get voting liberal.Thats current events. Abomination government pisses me off. Now here I gotta read this book about these long forgotten Canadian principles. Sorry to say Rob you fought so some trust fund idiot can sell off canada to the lowest bidder for a couple votes and a never ending holiday.Subservient to tyrants. A non sustainable lifestyle. Rob went to go fight so minority government can claim dictatorship totalitarian state. Anyways trying to not let the current abominations take away from this book. Lets see governor general subservient to tyrants well isnt that a oxymoron. So to me that award aint shit cause action speaks louder than words. Politicians and representatives east of Manitoba, parasite on Canada. Back then, is Now.

7. Theyre arriving at the dugout.Rob thinks of Rowena when he sees the cages. Devlin / Bonnycastle, were there. Levitt /Ross. They collected stained glass and have it displayed , with patron saint of Metal Workles St Eloi. Ok they get stew and ressuply ciggiues and food etc thats nice. And a liter of cognac that would be sweet not so much these days. Levitts got the Clausewitz book about war, im suire has some good strategies and things, but there hardly seems any tactics and pincer movements from a cavalry book one could translate to trench warfare. What about the other war book, With the magic of internet can read aportion. Oh hes just talking about attacking somme defensive positions and considering them impregnable. Attacking a mountain and terrain features. Officer theory that gets men killed and plays god with lives and justifies killing.

8. Going on about the dugout and how grand it was. They make it sound like summr camp. The animal hospital. Who is Rodwell, doesnt say. Dour is gloomy or severe stern. Commenting about Clausewitz and man to man combat and how artillery wont do anything, wow is clausewitz mistaken but they probably didnt have as fgood cannons back then. Rodwell captain, see its like Im always guessingh who people are, and for a story its like give me the facts, and why am I guessing all the time. for right now it makes the reading experience a bit irritating. What is this a guessing game or a book. Rodwell is the winnieh the pooh similar person as A.A. Milne, since he writes children illustrations. They talk about the hedgehog and other animals trying to also survive the war in a popular hedge, probably cause everything else is blown up. Pedant, is a rule follower oh i know the type the know it all no fun allowed and critical on the least important points, They have the dinner, the frog is a field marshall etc

9. Seems liek bonnie and the opther are on their way back. Sickly yellow Pall thats a blanket covering the town in toxic gas. I guess Rob is sizing up his dugout mates and how no one is really normal everyone has a small nuance that makes them odd. Rodwell with his toad. Minuet compares the act of war like a ballroom dance with artillery hiding in places then making the enemuy come out and get em. Anyways seems kinda quiet the distant shots, the eyes, Pertubed is anxiety unsettling. Its a qfalling asleep scene not much to say he wishes he could run awway but in hius dreams he keeps seeeing taffler and harris.

10. Well already on leave Harris got sick, Rob is in london getting the webley from some family representative. I guess whats therre to write about gore, horses dying. mangled corspes. So write about sleep and child like things. Gonna take a break theres a live space launch rioght now first manned space-x flight. Looking pretty cloudy down there. Ill get back to finish off #10 before the definitions assignement.
10. Ok hes on leave in London thats interesting. Town in Kent called Shorncliffe, so its a stockpile for the other artillery in the area. Embarkation leave. Ok so i messed that up this is a flashback seemingly. Since embarkation is before. Well I dont know then, if he had been to France or not yet. Lets they give a date. Straight of dover. Google shows some fall colors foggy, small town with bright white building facades. Curved shoreline. A military cemetary. Nice trees. This iones got some allied soldier of the great war, superimposed on a image of a war cemetary in spring. Theres a building nearby could imagine what Rob is seeing. It could be a infirmary.

lol theyre talking about the astronauts like theyve done the mission hundreds of times in rehearsal, so its no problem theyll just get out of their seats annd say: mission complete.
I think maybe so but theres gotta be no ride like that ever first-second time. I think compared to those apollo astronauts going around the moon thats the wildest. This time testing a new vehicle theres some math motivation right there. Anyways thats much better current events than shitty politics.

10. 10 still, hes got the webley.This is a flashback, well I guess the whole book is a flashback, but he hadnt gone yet overseas.I guess its a description now of London during ww1. Times are looking pretty bleak. Heres on the zepellins dropping bombs. It is far betrter to face the bullets than to be killed at home by a bomb.- Join the Army at once & Help to Stop an Air Raid.-God save the king. Then people were quiet and kept to themselves. I guess in culture its much easier to get an impression of London in ww2, than ww1, for me atleast. It was like a tunnel that you walked not knowing its destination, him or me. harris estanged from his Father not answering telegrams. Buddy can relate. Talking about the hospital theyre sitting in and the visitors that visit these places since no one should die alone. Well if they came over on ship together why not be freinds, and hes got the pneumonia. Probably gonna die from it. Rob link this to Roewena and how he wants to be around this person all the time. Anyways yea the gifts canned things and flowers. The princess visiting a cousin. Rob in his spotless breeches is horse riding pants. Is a strange thing he says, about being on the fringes of human and fish society. Hes having hallucinations of drowning or something. Maybe he dreaming of breathing under water.
Next para. freesia is a flower. Cathleen Nesbitt actress from London. Diana Manners the coterie. Rob sees taffler, he thinks about the peephole. Clues he meets barabara again, theyre all posh and Rob doesnt want to intrude. Just a fake photoo op it seems like. Its all for show. Captain Villiers caught in fire lost his vocal cords could talk back but guess he wasnt too happy bout what Taffller said or sometyhing about Barabara and the nurse hates Barabara liek why is she coming in here fake photo op. Kids of Marquis and Marchioness , yawn. who fucking cares

The Wars – Timothy Findley 1-21

Ok this is my homework.
Gotta read up to section 21.
Never read or heard of Timothy Findley nor this book.
Well I know who the Governor General is currently but not at the time of publishing.
That makes Jules Léger , or Roland Michener. Both of em with a bunch of awards.
Michener being the governor General that invoked the War Measures act during FLQ crisis.

“Never that which is shall die.”

Did that marble statue, that hates kids, really utter these words?
What does it mean ?
Who cares.
When is the last time I took a playwrights advice on life?
What does that mean, all things that live must die, nothing lasts forever?
All things that exist never die.

Next page.
“In such dangerous things as war the errors which proceed from a spirit of benevolence are the worst.”

– von Clausewitz .
Some German sounding officer type. Its ironic the statement cause hes probably doing the sending to dying, not the fighting from, my first impression of quote.
Yet I could be wrong lets let the research speak for itself.
This one makes more sense, lets see someone trying to spare lives ends up killing more.
Well and what else, this is then sense I get: When its time for war and killing its not time for benevolent action.
If I was a troop on the ground, gotta have that mindset kill or be killed. There is no time for kind-human hesitations lest you be the next dead.
Its gonna be a bloodbath.
von Clausewitz
Ok hes a failed Prussian cavalry officer called it. Just cause hes 189 years older than me doesnt mean I gotta like nor respect him.
I can think of a few generals that I would rather work/die for.
Hes a strategist philosopher nerd that mislead a bunch of people to their deaths. Seems like a warmonger to me.
So I dont think von whatever knows the definition of benevolence, nor errors.
Does he mean benevolence as in the 763000 German civilians estimated killed by the allied blockade, and the 2037000 German soldiers killed.
Does he mean errors in which over self confident idealistic officers make errors in judgement and write abomination literature leading to death and maiming of subordinates?
Empty words from a man that couldn’t finish his life project writings of spreading death and destruction.

Lets read on.
Ok thrown into some memory by Magdalene woods
Ok well they’re at some scene, there is a train crash or whatever and i guess some animals in the train cars.
Theres no one around except this Robert Ross guy. He jumps on the majestic beast that woke him up. they ride off into the sunset after rescuing the other animals.

Ok switch scene completely now were in some hospital for the mental. Some incoherent vegetables must be the veterans and the narrator must be like a child trying to find out what his ancestor did in the war. Yea reading the news on the generic public statements from the past nothing in between the lines. I mean its ww1, notorious for empty graves, because the body vaporized or buried by insane amounts of dirt. Here the author acknowledged my mocking of Euripides and the dog. Its all hearsay, not that I care so much its a point hes making maybe. I recall some similar feelings as young troop myself after seeing the news report of a battle I was in, Ive never respected cheese reporters since.

So it is some retrospective, the guy at some archives ? Sure. Sign out a box of your loved ones effects seems a bit fantasy to me but go on..
Yellow dust is that foreshadowing. Theres a boat and the woods mentioned again.

3- Begin some fantasy dialogue of what its like 1915. Ok anthropomorphizing old photos and giving them personality. Ok its some kind of opening credit scene people are going about their business of 1915 etc. Then battle of Ypres in April wasnt good battle for the allied expeditionary force. Calgary unit I belonged to has Ypres as battle honor. First gas attack where men had to soak rags in piss to try to survive, lets read on.
Ok were in Toronto (via written description photos) Yonge street.
48th highlanders was still is renamed,reserve unit, 3rd infantry brigade 1st Canadian Division ww1 , also Ypres in Battle honors. Kings crown is displaced on all unit cap badges and insignia.
Author has mental, problems because without warning hes having so psychosis about Robert Ross riding a horse. I guess it might mean to say that the picture is leaping top life and there is a man person that lived these events however created in the authors mind. Ok learning more about the imagined Robert,hes old enough to volunteer, he doubts the war will go on too long and anxious to get to the front. Thats maybe a common experience, generalized like in other fictions ive read.
Who is Rowena, and this Robert fellow he transcends time space and memories then. Did they just try to put him from photos to a disabled veteran getting pushed around the park or does he have a disabled friend ? Who knows who cares.
Ok thers a for truck now, and another name. Thomas Ross and family. so raymond ross farm equipment.
Ok war always a chance to make a buck and photo op. These people typically make farm equipment now make ambulance or something. Gotta get credit for your field ambulance. Im sorry i see this as a scummy advertisers move. Whoever Rowena is is bound to a wheelchair. Seems about right everyone trying to get in front of cameras as usual.
Ok disability too much water in the brain, wheelchair. Well theres a moral historic reason to fight. Ok too many characters introduced, Rob Rowena brothers sisters probably. Robs mom gives flowers at the station, rob doesnt like that. Merghh old person. ok losing interest this supposed to be family intro ? IK dont know. Heatrher lawson his gf ? Wtf is going on.Ok he has british family and spends holiday there where he must hear about the upcoming war and all these british and german politician and rich people industrialism problems. Yawn. Miss turner no context but it wil be important later. Ok fine keeping a open mind. Ok so the Turner is a real person nurse that had some tape that talked about Rob. Ok the nurse statement, hes just a generic soldier with no face but equal heroics as anyone else. I guess it was a big thing the test under fire to see hjow one would react and if you were noble to fight or cowardly and flee. This was a big status thing im sure with young men of the time. She also comments on the differences and similatrities between the so called leaders and the ordinary heroics they labelled extra ordinary. So she spoke of Robert Ross. i dunno im barely curious. Lets read on.

Finally 4. 3 was ugh.
Who is taking these photos of Rob, and why dont we all have personal photographers. Yeh slouching looks unprofessional. Don’t wanna be leaning onto some booby trap stand up straight.
Ok so seems hes on the train with other volunteers taking a look around. Well Heather sure was a profound character turns out theyre not in love and he dislikes her. Ok well hes at some recruiting thing and joining artillery. Couple things artillery, Vimy where Canadians invented the creeping barrage and counter artillery methods using trigonometry and sound to pin point enemy cannon locations. Artillery absolutely nessecary in modern warfare. Certainly isnt the tip of the spear like infantry or cavalry. Ok so Rob lost in his thoughts I guess his sister died.

5. Some more details on the sister whoever Stuart was supposed to be watching her but was masturbating or something, and well Rob might have some guilt on her death now.

6. Not much details the dates are moving for no rhyme or reason, well thats sad, I was lead to believe they had a special bond and now shes dead. Probably more sad for Rob than Rowena.
Using that rabbit imagery as a innocence maybe. Maybe a connection to the von whatever quote. In Rob trying to do something righteous he lost his sister. Ok some Rowena – Stuart talking,
who is speaking ? Rowena as a ghost now will stay with Rob, and the white rabbit too.

7. No clue what the hell is going on. Rob has to kill the rabbits now, only for the authors pleasure in making this reader sad. No ones gonna take care of the rabbits so he has to kill them. Why no one knows. Rob’s mom is a dis likable monster. I guess hes got a good motivation to run.

8. More nonsense, Robs mom is mourning ? I dont know i guess I can see its a tough situation for family. Im not emotionally connected to this story nor family. Im sorry sounds like a cruel thing to say. I can sympathize with Rob losing part of himself when his disabled sister he loves dies. In regards to the fictional family I dont really care. The mom is obviously takes the role of victim. But what do i know i never lost a child. Youd think that if that parent loved the disabled child could keep the rabbits around. So what does Rob have left at the house I guess it creates conflict so he doesnt stay at home the whole war.

9. Ok some aftermath of whatever the audience just had to endure.
Ok so new logic if you love something it must die. Logic from the drunk mom. So she must have hired someone to kill the rabbits, Rob gets really upsets and decides justifiable homicide.
But he doesnt get his way. As he gets dragged away. Anyways now got a reason for Rob to leave home as a prodigal son in a sense. Theres nothing left for him at the family home.
He gets some significant blunt force trauma for trying to protect the bunnies.
I wish he woulda bashed that guys head in with a rock or something. Some revenge for the bunnies which I appreciated more than most of the characters in this book so far.\

omg finally almost halfway done.
Robs taking a bath , his disgraced drunk white trash mom comes in while hes bathing. Shes a character like Willy Loman. I love to hate this type of character.
I say shes a character like Willy because just like Rob says she uses things that someone cannot control like being a infant.
Mom/willy loman type : “when you were a infant you were so weak I baby sat you and now as adult I expect some compensation and for you to be humiliated while we speak!”
Its like some ego power trip and trying to hold advantage over someone. Everyones childhood as a weapon. Reminiscing some embarrassing memory of Rob, and pretty much mocking him at this point. Yeah but he made the hockey team after getting back up so many times, shes really just self dialogue and yep some people fall and die. Then some sinistger witch comes out and cackles at rob, something about cant keep someone alive. So the evil drunkness couldnt help but creeping out and dropping some horrible words on Rob. Hopefully this is the end of the morbid family.
Then in the morning rob leaves well good riddance, I hope this is where the book becomes good after he stoop up for himself.
Thankfully my mom wasnt a drunk buffoon. I wish Rob was a little more assertive and used his words more but im sure he has much heroics left in him.
So Robs love for animals has a connection to the horses from earlier, or is it from the future. Anyways set the house on fire for all I care.

Well right away I guess that ends Rob’s youth as he joins up. Lethbridge air defence unit now. Ok is he an officer or a NCO? ugh. Cadet officer isnt a commission anyone is going to respect during training. Well he runs. The author making him sound like a individual soldier, he doesnt associate with the other troops bit of a loner, dressing and running on his own.
Are you sure this is the Canadian army ?
Might raise some red flags as not being a team player.

12. Running with coyotes at night, ok..
Ok well more animals. Keeping pace with animals being one with nature. This is cheesy. Hes having a flashback again. Yea they stop for a drink then the coyote howls to the moon.
Then he gets confined to barracks like he wasnt already confined to barracks during training. Very minor penalty for being AWOL he must be higher rank than the base commander .
So right away you got a troop disregarding orders timings, and AWOL not even done training. Yeesh. Thats desertion on paper. Death by firing squad.
Ok in fantasy land he has metaphorical moment with the coyote and the valley. The coyote whisperer.
Sat on a roof. I can think of about 100 NCO’s that would freak out at the idea of private no-name day dreaming on the roof.

13. Its another day Rob breaking in some horses. Then some horses go missing so he and Clifford get to go try to find them.
Ok so again theyre just wandering on their own and here is captain Taffler just chilling in the grass. Cause he doesn’t have superiors right.
Ok so hes out of uniform drinking by himself, good behavior for a Captain.
But then I guess this scene serves to rob as talking to someone having been overseas, and how you could simply throw a rock between trenches.
Ok it was encounter, so they leave Rob chases a fox while clifford is distracted.
Rob notes that a person (Taffler) at that distance is a dot, a dot is anonymous, meaning you wont see their face when the round strikes. One body is the same as the rest.
Distance is safety, well a cannon can only shoot so far. Alright well they got the 2 horses back, successful quiet mission. Probably soon the last of those.


New day. Its April 29th 2020. Lets see after some reflection decided to not be so harsh to ole fictional Rob and this whole book/story.
Im not gonna lie, the book is ok but I dont really like it.
But im not gonna focus on what I dont like try to be true neutral which is challenging mighrt nopt even be attainable.
I think i8m being pretty honest and maybe a touch of current event making me sour. So im trying to de-sour and sweeten (gc)
How do you tell a unknown persons story. I have a bit of an issue with World War 1 fiction I find might trivialize the common man experience.
Not even sure how I really feel about the tomb of the unknown soldier in Ottawa.
And whose authority does he have to respresent every unknown soldier, or even a fabricated one. Who needs permission.
Maybe its cause i dont have a distant great war relative or do I? When I was at Vimy I didnt see my surname. I suppose I could inquire. Maybe Im afraid of what ill find.
Whats the purpose of this book? Entertainment ? Drama? (makes me sad) Historical? Experience? Retorical Question? Philosophical in nature.

Lets revisit the Quotes both of them first Euripides.
“Never that which is shall die”
Someone wrote me this and it helped me understand more:
“Without the ‘never’ it means we all die sometime. With the never it means the human race will never die.”

Ok well thats similar to my impressions but thats a clearer way of looking at it.
I was playing with removing/adding the ‘shall die’ part.
When i should have been adding removing the never.

Ok Euripides.
Nothing lasts forever?
Lemme introduce you to extinction and dinosaurs, world war, pandemic, climate change.. The observable universe, rocket-ships and planned colonization of Mars!
As long as we dont destroy ourselves first.
Put that in your pipe and smoke it.

The von clausewitz quote. Its a sympathetic quote from an world domination intent.
Isnt that a oxymoron, benevolent action, in war?
Im not afraid to challenge that type of thinking that brought on some much death.
Thats between the lines though. Consider booby traps in recent wars including France World War one. The most heinous thing you could think of would be a effective booby trap.

First thing you get taught never pick anything up. There could be food or medicine and have a intent to help people, pick up the box and boom error.
I wonder now if Rob or any of his companions will be victim to exactly what i wrote. On that note moving on.

Ok the characters Clifford and Rob just had encounter with Captain Taffer? Theres some type of analogy made about life and Taffer just throwing rocks at bottles simple and well thats pretty much it.

14. Ok commentary on the weather, and how summer is nice and then in autumn it get wet.Snow. Ok learning more about Rib and communications with his parents. I guess hes getting spoiled with things so his family in Toronto somewhat wealthy and he gets a bunch of useless scarves and mittens useful things like compass and boots. I mean on personal experience try getting a side arm in Afghanistan with our ww2 era jiggling pistols probably easier to buy an AK-47 black market than get issued from the army.. 105 years later still same problems I digress.
To me makes total sense to get a reliable firearm to go to war. World war one is unique as in its in the peak of industrial machine revolution.
Leopold Bloom not sure the reference gotta peep it.Anyways so the researcher is obviously reading these telegrams and the only physical things left from Robs day.
Kinda alludes to the news in the prologue it happened as news once and also for the rest of the world like facts public information..
Ok and here is is like Platoon volunteering to go to war meanwhile he has somewhat of a life of privilege in the real world. Lastly introduces some another place near Lethbridge, Lousetown, maybe hes gonna get in trouble again before deploying.

15. Lousetown could be a bunch of different places but near lethbridge anyways. Anyways just giving a brief account of the town and Dreyfus, a funny anecdote about mr and mrs drygoods. Ok so basically if Rob doesnt go to whore house hes gonna be called homo sexual by his companions and somehow trhe researcher knows all this and describes the scene as they are on a night off.
Kinda reminding me of this on rainy river, its like talking about everything but army. Alright having some drinks reminds him of his mom cause shes a drunk.
Im guessing hes gonna have a bad experience here that turns him off liquor probably. Ok well i guess wrong but here the author describes the scene by the saloon horse tied up and in the rain passed out drunk is taffert and his dog. So rob is now collecting bottles and taking them back to that fence. Ok the gist is that captain Taffert is a drunk from the war passed out outside.

16. Enter the bar. The Swede mute greets you.odalisque not sure what that is. Its describing the madam , Maria drygoods dreyfus is the madam from next door i guess.German jewish. Probably tell the non army folk now by mannerisms and dress and deportment. Now hes gotta awkward dance with some redhead and Heather the ol gf was red-haired so he doenst trust her.Alright well what is that clove in the mouth as a breath mint.

17 Anyways so some graphic content , Rob gets drunk from whisky first time and women too, in couple awkard chapters. Ok some premature ejaculation jeez going up the stairs so hes nervous and shy etc. Anyways Ella is her name and they discuss ‘being happy’ and maria and I guess they have a kinda intimate moment, but anyways i geuss Ella has a peephole and they observe some people having sex. You can tell hes afraid and uncomfortable. So previous discussion Ella wont get paid unless they’ve been laid and Maria has away of knowing.. Is maybe why he threw the boots to make some sound to pretend he did the deed, or he was genuinely pissed off seeing that character through the peephole.

18. ok wow almost lost my content there.
Ok 18. Robs military carreer advances. Some report on taffler seen in the news wirth some royalty.
Marquis is a title or whatever. There is a funny story about the Marquis I read and Sir geoge simpson aroiund montreal 1800’s Someone was like nah, we dont do Marquis here. you’re just mister from now on. I dont know where i read gotyta get the details that but i think its funny. The guy introduced himself as Marquis other guys like nope we dont do that here you are mister from now on. Lol typical Canadian response to a Marquis I love it. Not that I dont respect commission or salute thats just a epic funny response. I tried to find it and couldn’t. Ill try again later.
Ok anyways Robs military career advances. He finds himself on a train near Regina. The indian scene is kindof cool, make me think of during the moon landing days, the most remote tribes people on earth, they might not know politics but despite being the most isolate communities on earth knew they had put man on the moon. So perhaps its like the Indians they see the train going by off to war its a good scene I can visualize. Well its a retrospective coming back home then and some memories. Observations that he recognizes these places in the dark. Wondering where the train will lead.
Its a interesting note about the cities back in 1915 era were silent and maybe only hear a dog bark or a train go by and no one would wake up. And in the upcoming carnage of the war, the cities/civilization at night will be forever changed. Yeah changed for the worse von clausewitz. Atleast he wore a uniform I guess declaring himself a combatant.

19 Roberts is an officer I can see his capbadge on the cover but not his rank. Theres 2 types of officers bad officers and good officers. Atleast at vimy we were able to command ourselves.
As opposed to British officers in command of Canadian men. In current events book time Gallapoli had just happened. It was a allied attack on turkey strategic waterways that didnt work out for the allies. Anzac day its like a Australian remembrance day. The ottomans with machine guns there was evacuation alrthough im not very familiar with this battle. Ok hes a 2 Lt junior officer.
Anyways it goes on about the historical accuracies of the days and allioed having to change their commanders and some ego personal problems, also world war. So maybe Rob is areal person could be the any-person represent probable common experience for young men of the time. Me personally after vieweing some battlefield sites and graves in France its very to crazy to think of our countrymen going through that experience.
Kaiser Wilhem gives a speech to outgoing troops thatthe war would be over before the leaves fell and now they were in their second winter and getting worse. Ggotta love the politicians leading people to kill and to their deaths by manner of speech. Theres always at the end of any world war documentary all the rotting corpses and skeletons of the combatants, you wish you could show some of these scenes to the Kaiser.

20. Some memories of what Robert liked , Longboat indianmaybe its a story or something. Or a book.
Stories about him running marathon aft er dinner when he was young barefoot.
Tell about how he connected with his dad after the marathon collapse and had Jaundince liver disease i think.
But anyways it helped him grow. Seems like alot of responsibility being young officer at 19.
And here is a written description of the photo on the cover i think.
Well its like a commentary about death and looking at photos of the dead.
Its serious i mean mortality but unknown and to go off to war is facing your own death.

21. Boating records now ghosting overseas on a particular vessel.
Its a side story about how horses were being loaded on a boat something never thought of i suppose. Sound like quite the operation with the harness.
Well I guess his background and family is in the ross ambulance ford business . How annoying his dad is though full and raises is spirits but gets him the wrong gun. That annoys me.
The its like a glimpse of Robs last letter from the boat and like a journal entry of the sights and sounds of what someone on board might have seen.

Well that completes what i gotta read for today.
You can tell something grim gonna happen to Rob. Or a mystery. Probably some acts of benevolence.

Its April 30 2020.
Just some remainder of my homework.

Tom Longboat, is a real person from history.
Boston, New York and Hamilton, are all the marathons he won, before turning professional.
Longboat achieved popularity, but was also the victim of discrimination.
During the Great War, Tom served as dispatch runner in France.
According to the internet, he was twice wounded, and twice declared dead in Belgium.
Tom was also victim of identity theft, and discrimination from the media, nevertheless he continued to win. 
Sadly, the Brooklyn media sided with the impostor.
Thankfully, the truth is known.
Alfred Shrubb, Tom’s main rival, declared after his death: “he was one of the greatest, if not the greatest marathoner of all time.”
June 4th, officially, Is “Tom Longboat day.”
Cameron Gayleard and Lyric Atchison, are the names of the winners of the 2019 Tom Longboat award, members of sports teams at CMU, and UBC respectively.

Tom Longboat Lane, Toronto.

Tom Longboat & Longboat Hall

May 4, did the online portion asking about animals, Robs qualities and traits,traits of his mom, non linear plot and the shifting point of view. How were my general impressions and so on.